Resolutions...

Around the end of one year and the beginning of another, we, as the human race, have a tendency to look at all we haven't accomplished this year, and make extraordinary lists of things we most definitely WILL accomplish this next year.

I myself have never actually made a resolution list, so I am going to. But it's more of a life resolution list. Just things I need to work on in general. Some serious, some funny, and some that only make sense if you are me. (Which you are not, so don't worry about it.)

Before I make my list, I want to point out that most people don't ever fulfill their New Year's Resolutions...and that's just fine. Because life can't be lived like a checklist. That ruins the beauty of spontaneous miracles and even spontaneous disasters we can learn from.

I've plotted out a life plan for myself more times than I can count. In some ways I am right on track, in others I am in a galaxy far, far, away from what I had planned. (i.e. being a chef, or having a cattle ranch, or being a makeup artist, or a drag racer...but I digress.)

The funny thing about it is, I'm happy. I'm happy at the direction my life has taken me. If you had come to me two years ago, or even just one, I would not have believed you if you told me of my future.

I am starting my last semester at LDSBC in a few short weeks. I am turning 19 in 20 days. I'm getting married. (Ok, just kidding on that one.) I'm graduating in April, and I'll be the 2nd McHenry to earn a college degree of any kind. This year I rediscovered myself. I learned to stand up for myself. I learned that I will spend the next few years meeting lots of people and losing lots of people as well. I got a bank account this year. I learned to use a debit card this year. I worked this year. I camped my badonkadonk off this summer. I made so many memories, had so many adventures, and loved so many things this year. So even though I didn't make a list or have any real resolutions, I had an amazing 18th year on this earth.

Well, these are my resolutions, and don't judge me for them.


1. Cry more.
I have a tendency to stop myself from crying. I'll tear up, so I change the subject, crack a joke, or simply tell myself to stop. That's not really healthy. So yes, my resolution is actually to let myself cry, and cry more.

2. Appreciate the people I love, and show it.
I'm just gonna say it. My parents are old. I'm getting older too. Everyone I know, someday will die. That's just how life works. And although I believe I will see my loved ones again...I want to spend time with them while I'm with them, and not assume they know I love them.

3. Say, "I love you" more.
I don't say it unless I mean it, but I don't always say it.

4. Stop and smell the roses.
My life is only gonna get crazier from now on, with school, with work, with family, friends, and boys. It's important to me to take time to escape the craziness and turn my music up or go for a walk, or go somewhere that no one knows me, just for a little while.

5. Study harder.
I know I'm capable of straight A's. I just need to get off my tush and earn them.

6. Don't get jaded.
People use me for so many things. But that's their problem. I can't let a few bad apples spoil the world.

7. Take care of me and be a little selfish.
This should be closer to the top. Too often I forget that I can't save the other passengers unless I put my oxygen mask on first.

8. Listen to more music.
This shouldn't be a problem, just ask my mother.

9. Keep in touch better.
Simple enough.

10. Stalk celebrity crushes more.
Like this one:




Oh, Ryan. Those eyes, they slay me.



Focus.


Agghhh.


Ok.

Back to blogging.



11. Be more spiritual.
I'm happiest when I'm doing what's right. I know that, so I've got to do that.

12. Swear less.

13. Stop friend-zoning guys so much.

And last but not least,
14. BLOG MORE.
I've been lacking in the blogging department. Forgive me, all. I will blog more when I'm at school and need to see pretty things.

Well, that's pretty much it. I'm sure I could add more, but that would make a ridiculous list, and it would take too long, never get accomplished, and then I'd feel like poop. So I'm just sticking with the basics.

I hope you all have a wonderful Christmas, Hanukkah, Kwanzaa, New Year, what have you. Be safe, celebrate, and remember what these holidays are all about. Love, and giving, and peace on earth. And food. Lots of foods. Probably some games too.

Anyway,
Everybody love everybody.
M.D.